So distressed that nothing anyone can say can make me feel better. When they try I push them away, making me seem angry, controlling and unreasonable. I hate myself but I can't stop it because I can't explain why everything is so bad. Can't seem to do anything right, get shouted at or corrected for everything I do. Sometimes real, sometimes in my head. Want to run away ....
So shut down I can't even pretend to feel better to make others feel better. I hurt inside so much and I don't know how to fix it. Trying not to cry, something else I'm failing at. Just want everything to stop.
I know that feeling all too well, I hope you get some real support soon x
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